Hey guys! Its been so long since I posted something. My last post was in April, after I had my board exams, then I was basically relaxing and relaxing. Break's still on but I can stay away from blogging no more... How have you guys been? let me know in the comments!
I've had several moments when I thought I want to blog about this or that, but I forgot soon enough. I'm telling you, if you don't code your ideas the moment they occur to you, you'll lose them.
There are still a couple of things I'd like to share.
My boards went great. I'm so happy with my results- I beat my old score and that's all that matters to me. Everyone I know has been so appreciative and proud, however I couldn't have done it without them. Sometimes we let success knock out common sense and replace it with useless pride and arrogance, I refuse to do that to myself. Especially because I know that when I was sick, I had people taking care of me, when I got hospitalized people came to visit me, motivate me and put the belief in me that I was gonna give my pending exams and perform amazingly. That was Needed. The day the scores came out I was in a train traveling to my uncle's place to give them a surprise visit, so when my best friend rang I was expecting a declaration of my results in percentage, but the news was different. Apparently I had topped, I don't know why i didn't rejoice, I wasn't sad but then I wasn't jubilant about it too. Indifferent is the word. I just sat there and smiled, that's how happy I was, only a smile. when I now think about it I think it was because my goal was never to beat person X or Y but to beat my own previous score and having done that all other laurels were inconsequential to my personal happiness.
My friends complain I don't contact them- but do they? I'm the kind of person who will climb all the stairs at the railway station despite being strongly advised against it if I have a friend to see off. I did that too. It's just that I'm at a point where I believe that the people who want to be in my life will always find a way to, and those who don't- will always find excuses to blame me for the failed relationship with them . I'm not saying I'm against communication, I'm just saying that it does not always need to be me who has to communicate, you can do it too. I'm not going to call you if you don't pick up my call or call back after seeing my many missed calls. Also I don't like negative people in my life there is absolutely no space for them. I've met people who'll bitch about their supposed best friend and then when you raise a truthful issue about how distant they are from each other will say "We are closer than we appear" . Yeah, right. These people live in Garbs of Pretension and will criticize any thing anyone else does. I've realized now that one doesn't need to be loved widely as much one needs to be loved deeply. I have a very small group of friends whom I absolutely love (and they do too), I am oblivious to the rest of the world- I don't care if someone is partying in Switzerland or calling me kiddish. Firstly they don't know me well enough to be true, Secondly their verdict doesn't makes me something I'm not or take away from me some quality I have. It only proves how important my existence is to them. I give important people importance, only.
Another funny thing that happened to me showed me how inadequate people feel about themselves. I have this childhood acquaintance who gave the board exams this year along with me. When the results came I happily told her about mine, and so did she. Much later I figured out that she was lying about her results- She had gotten much lower than she actually told everybody. I never said a word to anyone, how could I if it maintained her peace? She never congratulated me about my results, it was okay. Then yesterday while I was shaking hands with one of my ex-classmates who referred to me as Topper, she butt in and tried to paint a poorer picture of me and my marks. I didn't retort, i didn't even look at her but at that moment I realized how inadequate, unhappy she was with her life. Running down people and lying about her own reality kept her happy, What a Pity. She had no constructive source of happiness and found pleasure living a fake life so that she could paint a prettier picture of herself to the world. Such people need to be handled well, or even better- ignored. live your life guys, don't bother about barking dogs who seldom bite.
Have a Great day !
I've had several moments when I thought I want to blog about this or that, but I forgot soon enough. I'm telling you, if you don't code your ideas the moment they occur to you, you'll lose them.
There are still a couple of things I'd like to share.
My boards went great. I'm so happy with my results- I beat my old score and that's all that matters to me. Everyone I know has been so appreciative and proud, however I couldn't have done it without them. Sometimes we let success knock out common sense and replace it with useless pride and arrogance, I refuse to do that to myself. Especially because I know that when I was sick, I had people taking care of me, when I got hospitalized people came to visit me, motivate me and put the belief in me that I was gonna give my pending exams and perform amazingly. That was Needed. The day the scores came out I was in a train traveling to my uncle's place to give them a surprise visit, so when my best friend rang I was expecting a declaration of my results in percentage, but the news was different. Apparently I had topped, I don't know why i didn't rejoice, I wasn't sad but then I wasn't jubilant about it too. Indifferent is the word. I just sat there and smiled, that's how happy I was, only a smile. when I now think about it I think it was because my goal was never to beat person X or Y but to beat my own previous score and having done that all other laurels were inconsequential to my personal happiness.
Another funny thing that happened to me showed me how inadequate people feel about themselves. I have this childhood acquaintance who gave the board exams this year along with me. When the results came I happily told her about mine, and so did she. Much later I figured out that she was lying about her results- She had gotten much lower than she actually told everybody. I never said a word to anyone, how could I if it maintained her peace? She never congratulated me about my results, it was okay. Then yesterday while I was shaking hands with one of my ex-classmates who referred to me as Topper, she butt in and tried to paint a poorer picture of me and my marks. I didn't retort, i didn't even look at her but at that moment I realized how inadequate, unhappy she was with her life. Running down people and lying about her own reality kept her happy, What a Pity. She had no constructive source of happiness and found pleasure living a fake life so that she could paint a prettier picture of herself to the world. Such people need to be handled well, or even better- ignored. live your life guys, don't bother about barking dogs who seldom bite.
Have a Great day !
